Showing posts with label life lessons. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life lessons. Show all posts

Saturday, August 22, 2020

Not all bad. Choose where to look.


 Sempat lah kejap aku menaip ketika shift seorang ni. Takde la rasa segan sangat nak menaip kat pc besar gedabak ni hahaha. Aku sebenarnya nak share kisah aku kerja haritu. Haritu boleh dikatakan salah satu hari yang buat aku rasa nak pengsan. 

I'm okay with busy but not okay if I'm all alone and have to deal with loaded customers all by myself. That day memang busy tahap ramai customer terabai. It making me stress and balik tu memang rasa nak nangis dek penat. Tapi tak nangis pun bila dah masuk kereta bukak lagu karaoke kuat2 kahkah. Astaghfirullah 😁 

That day memang start aku open je kedai memang tak henti2 orang order bunga masuk. From 10am until 10pm I worked non stop. Dah 7.30pm baru dapat duduk makan kejap. Usually ada la masa untuk kau goyang kaki sejam dua sat macam sekarang kahkah. Alhamdulillah Allah kosongkan masa aku untuk solat zohor dan asar. Banyak kali aku berbisik, Busy takpe tapi kau senggangkan lah masa aku untuk solat Ya Allah. Turun je dari surau, automatik customer sambung masuk semula tak berhenti. Time macam ni lah kau lebih menghargai waktu lapang. Tiba tiba terniat nak buat amal lebih tapi masa tiada. Nak doa panjang tapi cemas tengok waktu. Tapi bila waktu lapang tu ada, kau buat apaa? Opps. Allah dah cakap, Manusia diuji dengan waktu lapang dan waktu sihat. We always taking things for granted. But, we always can repent and try do the right thing again 😉

That morning I got one super annoying diva customer. Only one but enough to ruin my mood for the whole day. Dia dah la beli promotion item pastu tergamak minta discount lagi. Then, beli non discounted item suka2 hati mintak discount. Hmm, pastu tergamak lagi nak jerit2, "call me your manager". Ini Karen versi Malaysia ni hahahaha. Aku rasa kelakar la. I'm the only one working there. Dia tak nampak ke. Aku dah la tengah stress dengan busynye. Aku ni jenis kering pulak. Memang tak layan customer gini. Dia akur je bayar. Aku memang tak kasi can sikit orang rude ni. Kawan aku jenis boleh layan lagi. Jangan tiru aku gais. Tak penyabor. 

Out of all that customer, my other customers was super nice and peramah to me compared to my usual days of working. They were so nice of waiting and responded nicely. Even ada satu customer ni really treat me like long known friend hahaha. After load her flowers into her car, she sudden ran to me and put her both hand on my shoulder, "awak tau tak tadi duit parking saya tak cukup hahahaha" we both laughing because she so confident that her money cukup untuk bayar parking tadi. Turn out tak cukup. Nasib baik ada duit selit ahahah. Rasa orang duk kedai makan depan tu terkejut kot kemain mengekek makcik dua orang ni. That akak really made my day feel better actually. Thank you Ya Rabb for her. So I decide to forget that sour moment and take a deep breath and start smiling again. Orang lain tak bersalah. Why kita kena terbawa-bawa and orang lain yang kena. I know it's hard tapi think again, that is that. Orang lain tak tau pun apa yang kita alami and don't expect them to understand us. Just let them understand that you are alone and capable of doing this and this only. Let them know the situation. Explain. Talk. Don't focus on the bad sampai tak nampak yang baik2 tadi. Yang buruk2 tu I always let God handle it. 

Moody sorang won't solve the problems. You are alone. Handle it professionally. gittu. Doa. Allah will help you 💚


Friday, May 17, 2019

Bersangka baik/Husnudzon


Assalamualaikum 
How's ur fasting gaiss? Kebulur kaaa? Sahur dakk? Hehe. Aku just sahur 3 ketul kurma dan se-mug air kosong. Lapar memang lapar tapi tenaga tu ada. Tak lemau. The power of date. Haha. The power of kurma lah.
Aku lepas kerja pukul 10 (biasalah keje beshe2 kat mall ni. Mintak lempang sikit haha) ni kadang2 kena pegi toilet dulu baru boleh balik. Boleh jumpa darah menitik kat toilet. Kalau darah period, why jauh dari mangkuk tandas and tong sampah. So weird mannn. Laju2 aku buat kerja and choww. Dah la takde orang. Nasib bulan puasa kahkah.
Ceritanya sebelum aku nak masuk toilet tu. Aku jalan....then 4 orang lelaki pintas depan aku. Mula2 tu takde rasa apa (orang blur memang macam ni). Lama2 tu aku perasan yang orang tak ramai time tu sebab mall dah tutup. Then, lorong situ agak sunyi. Aku jadi insecure and teragak-agak nak pergi toilet. Should I walk slowly and they go further? Huuuu what should I do... Dengan nature call nye lagi.
Eh, kejap. Ke diorang nak...
Diorang turn kiri iaitu ke arah surau. MasyaAllah. Sejuk hati tengok. Jemaah dulu sebelum balik kerja. Ye la. Dah sampai rumah nanti bole mandi then terus landing je kan.
Terus aku tersenyum dan rasa bersalah disitu kerana fikir yang bukan2. Namun tak salah. Itu langkah berjaga-jaga. Be more cautious of the surrounding.
MasyaAllah. Semoga Allah terus merahmati mereka di bulan Ramadhan ini. A little effort that increases their value. Subhanallah. 

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Kisah Ateis masuk islam

https://youtu.be/B6bZixhxZUQ
So, this morning I woke up with mixed feelings. I've decided to feed my souls as Subhanallah I sometimes carried away by this life. His manner is so peaceful and bright. He keep alternating his speech with Zikr. MasyaAllah. I aspire to talk like that. (Practicing)
The only Zikr that I keep alternating is Alhamdulillah when I sneezed and burped when I had full meal  This brother shows us the real akhlak by being so soft, polite and funny at the same time haha. Even we were not born like that, you know when some people are more outgoing and rough haha.. we can train ourselves. Okay, that is one aspect, manner.
The other things I'm amazed is his journey in finding the right religion. He's not shy to share an honest thoughts. It so relatable hahaha. All those imaginary and expectations we want from God haha. Ironically, God already shown everything to us. The next verse he said from the Quran is so deep. I keraiiii. What else do we want? Huhu.
People keep saying, waiting for hidayah and all that. Do you even go out and look for it? Like this guy did. Or are you waiting the hidayah to come while you dancing and drinking? Or when you already fall sick and can't move anymore? It's really a different thing you know.
Are you waiting or searching?

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

When life hits you hard, what did you do?


Assalammualaikum


When life hits you hard, what did you do?

After solat, literally, I just sit and talk to Allah. Coz I'm so lost. Don't know what to think. I know what I need to do. I just scared. Feel anxious whenever space is there and I carelessly let the thought came in.

Too many expectations around me. Around us.

I can't reach those expectations. I can move with only with my pace. When I met a human that cannot tolerate with my pace, sorry. I'm not a human pleaser. I'm not good with people. Yet they wonder why I'm a cat lover haha.

When I'm good with certain people, they stay in my circle. For a long long time. Lifetime. I take care of them. Keep in touch whenever I can.

Me? Weird? Nahhh, all of us is weird. All of us have a unique side. No one is normal. What is normal anyway?

My life keeps going ups and downs. I don't know what is normal anyway.

Recently, I just did something big. When I thought everything is settled down. No, it's not. I took a big step. For myself. Bukan selalu haha. I think this is the first time I experienced when everything went so wrong day by day. Can u imagine how stress I am? It keeps adding but no one sees it. No one understands. They can listen but they won't know it. Because I know myself. Quite rational. Sometimes. Rational or not, I don't waste my time again on something make me unhappy. I'm done with that a year ago.

I'm tired of blaming myself. I'm not good enough thoughts. I didn't try hard thoughts. Enough. Let Allah show me where I can feel good in being me. Where the place I can say " Good Job Nina. Let's try harder" without any self-blaming. Where the place being me is a good thing.

Coz there this one person said, "It's challenging but its fun".

Okay, let's find that route. That sounds more worth for my time. Nothing is perfect anyway. Find something tolerable to yourself. Tak salah. Don't torture yourself just for money or people sayings. Believe. Allah is the one give rezeki to his slave. Believe,  He's the one will help you. Allah always near you. May this route will make you more sincere in cari rezeki. Bekerja itu satu ibadah. Don't ruin it.

Believe.

Nothing can stop you after this.

:)